Dont know how,
Dont know why
Dont know what is this,
Just feeling worried and anxious
If it just my feel see it excessive?
Did i treated him badly ?
This is him?!
Because already expect and then afraid to lose it?
(Too) Do not want to be alone ?
Or I did not expect him like ….?
I just afraid that may i will lose … ?
May it will clear after today?
And this continues